No one ever tel us the exact time we will fall in love. It is part of the walk of life and it happens when it happens. It always does. For some of us it happens younger than others; but when it does, we can not deny it. For me it happened rather early. I remember feeling the pain in my chest as if the child I carried in my bowel was suddenly in danger. In my culture, people always say that because of intuition that a mom always feel what is happening to her child(ren).Sometimes she can even smell danger days away. That exactly hat happened with me and K.C.C. After a while, I started feeling his pains, worries, and danger. I was dreaming of things that would then happen. He became part of me and the map of his life was traced in my palm. For months, I denied that I was actually in love with him. I tried to convince myself that it wasn't real, that I was too tough for love, and that such an ordinary man could not own my heart. So for months, I carried that cross because I did not want to be disappointed. I knew that he did not love me the same way that I loved him so I decided to wait for him to be ready. So, I was broke 20 years old in a city that I didn't know and in love with a stranger. Everyday, I knelt down and pray for a miracle: one day K.C.C would one day realize that I love him and would then love me just as much as I loved him. Everyday, I went to bed anxious and woke up the next day disappointed because the day would never come or at least come soon enough. Some days, I would get tired of waiting and prayed instead that I would forget him. Then, he would not be obligated to love me back. Other times, I found myself writing him letter to let him know I felt. Of course these letters never got to him. And maybe  that's how I got through day by day. I convinced myself that he did not love me. I started working full time and going to school full time so that both my life and mind would never find a minute to think of him.  You see, no one told me that falling in love was so hard. I was unprepared and even when it happened I had no tools to fight it. I was in a battle without armor, protection and shield, so of course I fell and so great was the fall.